i meant to share with you earlier a line from the movie "Always" which Richard Dreyfuss' chraracter mouths as his spirit is talking to his girlfriend (Holly Hunter) who is somewhat oblivious to his presence. He says something to the effect of, "The love we hold back is the greatest and perhaps only real pain that follows you in death."
While I am in so much pain now, I know it is because I miss Clancy and not because we both held back on each other. Am proud to say that I love the life we had, I love the love we shared -- we loved each other so well. Maybe in my case that is what makes it very painful, the fact that I had it so good and now I have to be severed from that goodness momentarily.
And for all my circuitous rambling, I want to tell you that you should go and love whom you love. Don't go through life wishing you had done something about it rather than nothing. The one we love is always worth our love even if people around us think otherwise..