Friday, November 12, 2004

I dont expect you to give me the attention that you
give them, and I dont expect you to love me back
either."
This were one of the last few words that I told him. And I told myself over and over again, tonight I'm losing him, but he's not losing me. I can't understand myself. I want him out of my life but I cant quite submit to the
thought. Maybe because there was a time in our friendship that I loved him much more than the expected relationship we have. But the thought and "that" feeling was long gone. I dont know why and when I lost it, but all I know is that Im hurting not
because he cant love me, but because I cant understand why he keeps on ignoring me. Is it because he thinks that if I get too close with him I'll bug him again with my feelings? Or maybe because he thinks Im still inlove with him and my world wont rotate without him.That or the other, i still cant understand.

Leads me to one question, why do people pretend that they care when they really dont? WHy do they keep on saying they'll call when they dont. Why do they have
to say they'll make up for something they did wrong and still not do it. Why do they have to lie about things?About what they really feel?

Tonight, I will cry, but not as much as I've cried before. Why? I dont know. Maybe its because of the thought that sunk into my mind as I was texting him.

"Whatever you say, he'll keep on ignoring you till the
last minute." It gets louder and louder and louder
till I cant hear anymore sounds. I was already deaf. I
was already blind. And already dead.


andrama ko. walang basagan ng trip

oh happy day........

margret at Friday, November 12, 2004

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