Wednesday, March 24, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVY AND AEDAN...love you both so much...
has anybody seen my self esteem?

i think i may have tossed her out on her nice, some kinda decent well mannered ass in the trashcan together with the empty bottle of gilbey's i swallowed to the last drop last night...a girl can do that..lose things when she's had a little to much to drink

"this isnt working"... 3 words were all it took for him to shake my world again...

each time he was supposedly be somewhere else, my self esteem sagged just a bit only to recover and chirpily answer..."thats ok honey"..after all, i patiently assumed he was being in his proverbial "cave", wanting to be his "primal lonely self"

"...and i cant deal with the presure of my work and making you happy"..... yeah yeah...enough!!!!

i was too dependent on him..i made him my life..my happiness. at some point i didn't know where he stopped and i began. we had become welded into this big chunk of me with no bounderies. and up until the breakup, i didnt realize that i needed to find identity apart from him..
i loved him very much..wait..i still love him pala..but he went away and when he did, i had to find a way to survive each day..

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when you listen to other people's woes, you dont wallow so much in you own misery. you get out of yourself...
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i love my AA family...they're one hell of a group. thanks for cheerin me up. STRENGHT AND HONOR baby..mwah!

and oh..DMC peeps too..labshu guys..

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BUT I DO LOVE YOU
I don't like to
be alone in the night.
I don't like to
hear I'm wrong when I'm right
I don't like to
Have the rain in my shoes
but I do love you (2x)

I don't like to
see the sky painted grey
I don't like when
nothing's going my way
I don't like to
be the one with the blues
but I do love you (2x)

Love everything about the way you're loving me
the way you lay your head upon my shoulder when you sleep
and I love to kiss you in the rain
I love everything you do
oh, I do

I don't like to
turn the radio on
just to find I
missed my favourite song
I don't like to
be the last in the news
but I do love you




everthing means something i guess....

margret at Wednesday, March 24, 2004

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